Monday, May 14, 2007
i dunno if you'll ever chance upon this.. but i still wanna say sorry. i'm really very sorry that things have turned out this way. i didn't intend to make you feel like this.. i guess i never knew. i wish i could have eaten back my words.. but that might juz have hurt even more. i juz hope everything will be fine and that you'll be fine. sorry. if only sorry would help a single bit.
i guess things juz went awry.. it's not your fault but mine. it's not that you're not good. in fact you're amazing. equipped with many rare talents. it's not one but many. it's one thing to be a jack of all trades but master of none.. and it's another thing to be a jack of all trades and master of all. it's wonderful! so never ever think of yourself as useless ya! whenever you do, go do something that you're good at. it might juz help to brighten things a little. juz the way i used to go for a run whenever i'm feeling down. yes maybe you may be of a different calibre, but that doesn't make you inferior in any way. moreover humans are still humans. juz wired up differently.. the thing iz juz that yeah you're different.. not exactly saying my cup of tea.. it's smth more that i'm looking for that i cannot find. i dun wan you to change cuz that wont be you anymore. i believe that not everything about relationships are great. more often than not there are so many things that becomes burdens of the relationship. i'm not denying that i too wanted to get to know you better for being able to get to know people and make friends don't come by easily. and i really dun wish to lose you as a friend. rem i still owe you a hug x)
people dun care how much you know until they know how much you care.
i dun care how much you can sweet talk until i feel how much you care.
well well. wad a day. a day that caught me really in a frantic mood. i was frantic alright.
mr low was absent so chem prac was cancelled.. means early physio. had 10laps of walking lunges with a 15lbs body bar.. did not even half of the hamstring strengthening exercises when i can called away to do balancing with Dale. waha. it was funny. and my calves were tight like crazy. ended physio early.. i requested to leave by 445.. but 4 was indeed too early.. nonetheless i headed back to school for releasing of nominees results. all the nominees got in except yenberg cuz of disciplinary matters.. if only he stayed outta tong's way.. he would have made a pretty not bad sports cap. rah. oh well. den headed home with my heart pulsating nonstop. this iz the first time i prayed on the bus on the way back. i really did.
13may, sunday.
routine.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
yeah. it's mother's day. on saturday i made a tiramisu as my mum's mother's day present. and this morning when we took it out to try. yuck. it's BITTER!!!! ): have you ever eaten a bitter tiramisu?!? lolx. and i dunno if my mum liked. sigh. it's bitter. no longer izzit a tiramisu dream.. it iz a tiramisu disaster ): sigh. and being put down not juz by my immediate relatives.. the list goes down to my mum's side relatives because she asked we bring some over. sigh. i know it's bitter and i didn't want it to turn out this way either la!!
12may, saturday.
woke up late. baked that disaster tiramisu and with the egg whites i didn't use my grandma made angel cake (: that one was nice. den went for service which was on meekness. and den went for makan at 85. it was alright? i realised everywhere when there's ailin there's fun. (: yay to ailin..!
*throbs @23:37 <3
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